When I Realized I Am A Little

For as long as I can remember I have always had little tendencies.

I never stopped loving playing with toys. When everyone had long grew out of it, I would still go home at the end of the school day and play with my Bratz dolls. I always had stuffies, and I don’t mean just a few I mean I always had A LOT of stuffies. I used to have a bunk bed and one of the beds was entirely used to hold my stuffie collection. I’ve calmed down a bit since those days. A bit. Not a lot honestly but anyway I’ve gone off topic.

The jist of the beginning of this story is I have always enjoyed things like colouring and playing with toys. Luckily I had a family that encouraged me to do what I wanted to do an didn’t make fun of me for playing with toys well after most children stopped. They thought it was good to continue using your imagination to play games.

SIDENOTE- I’m writing this at 5:00 in the morning when I have had no sleep and I am incredibly tired but I can’t sleep right now because of reasons so if this whole post is a mess just tell me and I’ll rewrite it.

Anyway, as a grown ass adult I still had desires to play with toys and I wondered for a long time what was wrong with me. What 21 year-old still loves collecting stuffed animals and watching cartoons and playing with toys in the bathtub? The answer was me. I definitely did.

On top of this, I always knew I was a sub that desired a more dominant person that didn’t mind taking care of a lot of the adult things in our relationship. Like finances. I never thought too much about this aspect of my relationships I just thought it was me and I didn’t like having that much adult responsibility.

So one hot summer day I was sitting in my room working on homework, and by sitting I mean laying on my bed and by homework I mean scrolling through pinterest. That was the day I found a meme. That’s right, my DDLG life began with a meme. I remember it exactly, it said something along the lines of “when daddy says no to his little” and it had a picture of Belle from Beauty and the Beast pouting. I was instantly intrigued. What was a little? The post was by someone with DDLG in their name, what was that? And I started googling. The first thing I found was Binkie Princess (I think on Instagram at least she goes by sailor binkie now) and I started watching her videos.

That was it. I suddenly knew what I was. AND THERE WAS OTHER PEOPLE LIKE ME! There was a whole community of people that liked playing with toys and they had these things called care givers (also called daddy’s) and the way they described ddlg was basically my relationship already I just didn’t have the language or understanding to know what it was before then.

Simply put, I was hooked. I wanted to be a part of this community. I wanted to dive deep into being a little and let my inner little self out now that I knew it was ok. After much searching and googling I began to adopt the lifestyle and let me tell you, I have been nothing but happy in my little life ever since.